Yesturday was my little sisters 19th birthday and as we were having dinner, by dinner i mean a tex-mex style bar-b-que, i realized that this past weeks have shown me that my life still revolves around Javi, my husnband.
I'll take you back to the begining of this years. Shit got so bad that i wasn't allowed to go to the store with my mother or my sister. I couldn't be independant yet I was who supported us, you see I'm a nail technician and for a 21 yr. old to make 600 to 1000 a week isnt so bad hu? After I lost my job two weeks later my grndfather died, I found myself crying to sleep everynight because I suddenly saw the picture i was avoiding for so long, what I feared happened, I let myself consume my life with him.He didn't even let me go visit him during those two weeks, the last time i saw him was in june when he had surgery. Everything I did was for him. Why, I'm still asking that question and have yet to respond.
I asked him for a divorce you know, this yr in march but thats in the next blog
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